We had a fun family day in the city, walking by the river, visiting the science museum, going to the
ReStore, and doing some birthday shopping. It was a super day. We arrived at home in the late afternoon and 2 kids went outside to play, 1 went up to play with
Legos, 1 was still at work, M changed into grubby clothes and went right to work on a project and I plopped in front of the computer.
One of my sons came into the office and said he didn't feel well. Then his words became jumbled and incoherent at times. I tried to hurry him outside to M, without acting alarmed. I didn't want to scare him, but something was clearly wrong. Things got a bit worse, we loaded everyone into the van and were off to the emergency room. It felt like the longest drive.
When we got there we explained what was going on and after a brief wait we were ushered right in to triage. We went back to our seats and in minutes we were back in talking with a nurse. A CAT scan and blood work were done and by this time my kiddo was doing better. The scan and blood work came out normal. That is a huge relief. But we still don't know what happened. There are a couple possibilities, but we still don't know.
Since that time, all has been good with our son, but I have spent days calling, waiting for returned phone calls and hanging up and crying. Crying over the process and over how long things take and the emotions of it all when your child could have something wrong. And crying over the one phone call I missed because it was early morning and I had had the phone with me nonstop until bedtime the day before and hadn't thought about getting an early morning call.
Monday we went to our chiropractor, who is a very wise and knowledgeable man. He and his wife have lost a child, so he has the compassion of a parent who has been through painful things. He is well rounded in acknowledging what medical doctors do best and in where they may be limited. I have seen him for 10+ years and he has been consistently reliable and helpful. This situation was no exception.
Meanwhile on the medical side, we had to wait 24 hours for my primary care doc to get a referral filled out for our insurance company so we can see a specialist. Then once that was turned in it was another 24+ hours before it was approved. And that was fast for our insurance! Then the specialist was called and his first opening is over a month out. So, we wait and pray for a cancelled appointment so we can get in earlier, but mostly we wait.
Thankfully our son is doing very well. Things could be so much worse, but they are what they are and what they are is hard because I want answers. I want to know what is going on in his body. I want to know what the odds are of this happening again. But I don't get to know all that right now.
This is also the week that I learned that our primary care doctor is moving and I have to find someone new and it is the week that L took scissors to a bit of her hair, and it is the week that C decided to get highlights in her hear, and it is the week that I need to finish mapping out our schedule for the coming school year and it is the week that I need to get some clothes boxed up for donation and it is the week I need to get my grocery list ready for my big monthly shopping trip next week and...
And that is life. The normal stuff carries on even in the waiting, and that normal stuff is a security in ways when something in life is amiss. These situation is a reminder that all can change in a matter of moments. In the waiting we strive to keep living, to savor life a bit more, to hug a bit tighter and to really listen and look when someone says, "Hey, mom can I show you..." Because all of this is so very precious.
What a difference 3 days can make. One day I sat in the ER cranky and can clearly recall the people who were in there waiting as well. Then three days later, with a true emergency, my thoughts were anything but cranky and my entire focus was on my boy. Nothing else mattered in those scary moments.